Sunday, September 13, 2009
Back. I haven't posted in god knows how long man...
I rly dunno WTF's goin' through my mind... I seriously dun...
Everyone around me actin' as though they rly know me......
As if they've been through wat I haf......-.-
Ok not everyone juz most ppl......
Like for eg.
1. Do I rly wanna go SHATEC?
2. Do I rly like Isabel?
3. Am I still in love wif ******?
4. And wat bout *** ****?
...This is juz _|_ed up...-.-
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Ok...... new record... again... i think......it's safe to say that my relationship wif her is improving...but i juz found out today that she...... is seeing someone now......not in a relationship yet... but they're seeing each other...and the dude's like quite high-class......he's from RAFFLES INSTITUE.Yeah u read right. RAFFLES INSTITUTE. Mum-fuck's from a prestigiousinstitute...... and i'm stuck in ur local neighbourhoodshit place...... WTF MAN!!! I'm like invisible compared to that high-end muther-fucker man!!!WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHIT!!!!!!!!!!I rly got no luck wif girls man!!! Y is it that the girls i liker either too busy studying their heads off or alr in a relationship??!!That's the least of my problems now......i dun even know wat she thinks of me!! A friend? A brother?HECK I DUNNO.And the BEST part is, i told her that i'm attracted to her......And she was like "oh-that-happens-to-me-all-the-time" attitude...Totally indifferent... INDIFFERENT! U feel me man?!Like i nvr even said it in the first place!!!!Arrgh...... i'm losing my head here......I threw my fucking face on the fucking floor,forced out that question to get her number like trying to vomitand NOW......I AIN'T GONNA WASTE IT.Cheerio,A VERY JEALOUS Gerald......
Friday, July 10, 2009
I think i broke another record...... Anyways......FINALLY............ i"VE DONE THE IMPOSSIBLE......I GOT HER NUMBER AT LAST!!!!!!!!!WHOOOO!!!!!!!!Been chatting wif her for the past 3 days. she's notinnocent as i thought...but she's still the sweetest lil' thing......X3haha. alr know her b'day, star sign, no. of fmaily members,sch, name, email, bedtime and tonite i'll probe some more.or rather she's doin the probing. lolCheerio!!Gerald
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Back. I think i've set a record. dun think i've logged in within such a short period of time before. lolthat was the best chi tuition ever!!!!!! thx to it i've been so much lighter and happier.XDWell anyways i've set my eyes and heart on a new target.the sweetest lil' thing i've ever seen and met.........<=3at the beginning i didn't pay much attention to her coz of well...yeah so anyways i started getting interested in her when she started getting friendly.and she kept looking at me and whenever we made eye contact,she'd quickly look away only to look up again to c if i'm still looking or not.and at first i would coz i was surprized by her behavior. now i do it to send herthe impression that i'm into her. and she's juz sweet.<=3so sweet.........<=3well i fucked my first 3 chances-1, i didn't treasure it properly.-2, i was caught unawares and i oso didn't treasure it properly too......-3, i juz fucked up real bad........and now i've been given my last chance by an unknown power(god, fate, heaven watever u wanna call it)and this time i will treasure it and i will not fuck up this time round.i will succeed! i will achieve! i will prevail! i will get her number!!!THOU SHALL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Cheerio,Gerald<=3
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Back again...Went to Singapore flyer today. But i didn't get on it.Reasons y......1. I'm not good wif that high heights. lol2. I'd be bored(half an hour up there looking dwn on singapore. very entertaining.)3. Needed some time alone(sort out some thoughts...)But I had the nicest carbonara-in my life!!!!-today at Jalapeno's pepper steak and seafood cafe.The sauce was flavourful, the onions didn't change the sauce eitherand the best part is, the consistency was perfect throughtout.juz perfect man. gotta go back there and haf it again.be logging off soon to go for chi tuition.(-.- sian)Cheerio,Gerald
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Hey sup y'all moe foes?Been a month since i last posted. nothin exciting...had mid-year, got railed at... failed five subjects, got railed at...had careers day, didn't get railed at.... had parents meet,got railed at somemore... went for a camp...... got railed at afterthat...I realised, between mon to wed that i still feel for her.no matter how many times i said i will give up on her,i juz can't do it. but i realised that i'm in control.i can control my feelings, my emotions and still like her.so right now, i dun rly care. the fire's lit but the pot's empty.well i've been on the bad side of most of my family. dunno,dun care, dun give a fuck. they think they know everythin.leave them be.Well that's all. gotta go.Cheeriop.s. watch this(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I51PQ_FREsA)
Monday, May 11, 2009
I FEEL LIKE CRAP.
I'm screwing up my life man......
I keep telling myself that letting go of her will make things easier for both me and her but everytime i'm on the verge of completely letting go i'm suddenly reminded of how perfect she is for me and I turn back and tighten my grip...... I dunno wat to do now...... If only she knew how I feel......